[photo from tumblr]

I’ve felt so tired – exhausted even, after the move. I’ve been planning this for years, even some year before the break up last summer. It’s been a long journey from feeling helpless to being closer to my own independence. But now I’m here and for the first time in my whole life I have a place that is just mine. My place to rest and find peace of mind – something I’ve never experienced before in my life.

So I have been resting and trying to recharge before I start my new life here. The most important thing right now is for me to reconnect with my art. Last night I opened up my buckets of paint for the first time in almost three years. I have missed the smell of acrylic paint – and a fresh canvas. I also prepared a wooden panel so I can paint whenever I want to. I feel very excited – and a little nervous too, it’s been such a long time since I’ve been painting.

I need to recharge so I can push through all my insecurities and fears and get lost in my creativity. That’s my version of Heaven.