I have found a new inner strength, I can feel it. I just need to hold on to it no matter what, even if I fall, even when I fail and even when the hormone levels go up and down. I have so much to be happy about, much more than I have problems. I will make sure to remind myself of this every day.
In 20 minutes Johnny will call me from California during his lunch break. He’s probably the best thing that’s ever happened to me. I might feel lonely here in my apartment but I’m not lonely in my heart. And I have creative projects in the making in each category of my favorite artistic expressions; writing, digital art and painting. I’m taking care of my health. Trying to eat right. Exercise (well, sort of). Think in a positive way. I need to keep going. Because I’m finally back on the right track.