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Work in progress…
Dustin O’Halloran – Opus 36
I haven’t been spoiled with a peaceful mind in this lifetime. I am tired of all the aggressive energies and the passive aggressive manipulations. I don’t want anything to do with it except when I am dealing with it in my art. I wonder how my life would’ve looked like if people hadn’t forced their rage or dark energy upon me. I am so tired of being yelled at. I am so tired of having to defend my right to feel at peace. To feel safe. Loved. Seen. Respected.
This song is for all the people close to me who bring peace to my mind. I am so grateful. You mean the world to me. You know who you are. ❤
Why I think NASA is sexy
Photo by NASA
I’m watching the 2014 documentary “The Last Man on the Moon” about Apollo astronaut Eugene Cernan who stepped off the moon in 1972 leaving his footprints and his daughter’s initials in the lunar dust. It is a powerful story and I have tears in my eyes. There’s a strong connection between art and science – both equally curious about finding and exploring the boundaries of life and reality. Artists and scientists have worked closely together for hundreds of years, especially before the camera was invented. The artists illuminated the microcosmic worlds found by the scientists and illustrated their understanding of plants, human anatomy, geography, astronomy and the animal kingdom.
Photo by NASA
I’m really in awe of science at times. Especially all of the NASA projects makes my mind have goosebumps all over. It actually makes my mind feel wet and aroused. Not only do they produce mind-blowing photographs of the galaxies of our Universe which are more amazing than any art I could ever imagine, – and pushes the limits of what’s possible to achieve, NASA is, according to me, expressing the highest form of human curiosity. And that’s fucking hot. That’s what motivates lovers too. Curiosity. A need to explore, to go beyond any familiar limits or restraints, to reach a higher level of consciousness – and the uncompromised assertiveness to follow a desire. NASA is listening to the heartbeats of Space. Penetrating deeper within the unexplored. Blazing across the sky. Flames. Fire. Explosions. Roaring. lift off. Going higher. Higher. Vibrations. Unfolding. Silence. Stillness. Darkness. Light. Orbiting. Gravity. No gravity. Breaths. Tumbling. Faster. Faster. a timeless time. Taming the unknown. Devouring. Touchdown. Exploring density. Depth. Landscapes. The surface. And the hidden worlds underneath. Textures. Colors. Footprints on new territories. Wanting to be the first. To go deeper. Further. Beyond. Trembling with fear. Anticipation. To change the consciousness. Expanding. Open. Wide open. Secrets revealed. Absorbing every moment. Appreciation. Love. Home. But deep into another world.
There are many similarities between NASA and a lover. But perhaps the most significant thing they have in common is the need to risk it all to be able to find a sense of belonging in a place, far, far away from everything they have ever known. A home away from home.
Annie Lennox – Into the West
I love this song.
Right now. Right here.
Today’s state of mind.
Unveiling of Mia Makila artwork at Galleri Kameleont – “KONSTRIDÅ”
Today’s unveiling of my artwork “The Taste of Time and Paranoia” at Galleri Kameleont. I was honored to be part of the gallery’s “KONSTRIDÅ” (art curtain) project where one artist is invited to show one artwork at the gallery for only one day, and it’s not reveled who the artist is or what artwork is hiding underneath the curtain until the actual unveiling of the piece. I had so much fun!
The Taste of Time and Paranoia (digital) by Mia Makila, 2014
Look what I accidentally found on Google
What an amazing digital portrait of me made by Benjamin D Hodson! I feel very honored. Here are more portraits of me made by other artists.
This morning sounds like this:
Dmitri Shostakovich – Waltz No. 2
Unfolding
It’s an incredible love. This is the first time I feel like I am safe enough to be honest about who I am in everything – and knowing I won’t ever be judged for it. Sometimes you need to set someone free in order for them to be able to breathe but still be deeply connected. That’s when trust is your guiding light.
My new life is my favorite work in progress. I’m experimenting with the elements of it to see where everything is meant to go. If it doesn’t fit, I will find a better place for it. I’m exploring my boundaries and the shapes and forms of my freedom and independence. I’ve never been able to do this before. Johnny is the most generous soul I’ve ever met and he’s letting me be me – all the way, even though I have my own philosophy about so many things that could easily scare him off. I’m not like other people so I need to find my own lifestyle that feels authentic and true to who I am. This is where I’ve done a lot of damaging compromises in my past – and let men castrate me in order to fit their view of who I should be instead of who I am. I’ve let them tame my inner wilderness until every ounce of me has dozed off and then I’m just there to serve their needs.
This is my time. The age of Mia. And I’m creating it in real time, letting things unfold without trying to control it and just improvising instead of planning. All I know is that I feel like I’m slowly getting everything I’ve ever wished for. And for the first time, I’m not scared of losing it – because I have trust. I trust Johnny. Myself. I have trust in people. And in life itself. What more do I need to be able to express every side of myself that has been quiet and chained for so long?
About love
A video message about my latest painting ‘THE CORE’
Bakom ditt filter
Att flyga
med vingar
som brinner
din dörr
slår igen
och igen
efterdyningar
av vilda
hjärtslag
och ljus
som vibrerar
långsamt
mot låren
river
sönder
varje verklighet
där du raderar
mitt namn
med tvång
och tvivel
– Mia Makila – 16
My naked face
I like this series of selfies without make up from 2014.
Erik Satie: Nocturnes
The various Farenheit of the heart
I feel hurt. Perhaps it’s just my silly expectations of things, or perhaps most people are unaware of how they sometimes fluctuate between wanting closeness and then suddenly keeping a distance. It’s not always easy for me to be this connected to things, people, hearts and minds, because it makes any disconnection so very brutal. And I know I am alone in my experience since most people don’t think about these matters. But it’s like one day you mean the world to them, the next you are nothing but the smallest detail in the back of their minds.
I’m not like that at all but I guess I have to learn how to adapt to the changes of their inner thermostat so I won’t end up hurt on the days when there’s more distance and coldness than the days where I feel appreciated and embraced.
My heart is the most sensitive place. I should create a map for people to know how to navigate inside it so they know where they shouldn’t go.
Bad hair day
It’s a strange day, I feel flat and I’m having a bad hair day to match. But the busy day at the gallery is the perfect distraction. I haven’t had the proper time to write anything substantial here in a while, I really miss it. I need to write when I’ll get home. And possibly dye my hair, because I’m lacking a dimension of the color red right now. In many different ways. Inside and out.
Moto Boy – Beat Heart
Morning coffee [still inside the cloud]
Enjoying my morning coffee at the gallery where I’m doing my internship right now [Galleri Kameleont ].
Clouds of dreams
It’s morning but I’m still wrapped in the clouds of dreams and nocturnal adventures. I’ll just keep it with me in my pocket all day.
A future without dots
Today was beautiful. My life is my favorite place in the world right now. I’m so grateful and I am feeling so loved, not only by Johnny but also by people who have the most generous hearts and want to share them with me, by friends and fans, – and also by myself. And I’m doing a lasting comeback when it comes to painting. “The Core” is actually the first painting of 2016. But hopefully I’ll be able to keep this flow of creativity and mojo that I’ve got working for me right now. Even if I still have a long way to go until I’m ready to show my art in a gallery again, I’ve achieved more than I thought was possible in a short amount of time. I feel proud of myself.
I’ve changed a lot as an artist since the long hiatus. I want to celebrate this change by making a statement, so this is the perfect time to officially change my last name from the original Finnish spelling – Mäkilä – to the international version – Makila – even in my Swedish art career, where I’m known by the original spelling and pronunciation. Mia Mäkilä doesn’t exist anymore. No more dots. Just a clean place to start over.
This is the dawn of the life, the adventures and successes of Mia Makila! I feel like celebrating…
Sister paintings
The sister paintings – “Sperm Wounds” and “The Core” in my studio right now.
“The Core” by Mia Makila [2016]
“The Core” by Mia Makila [2016] acrylic and cardboard on canvas – 100 x 81 cm
I will get a better photo of it soon. Click to enlarge.
Mountains
Anna Ternheim – Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely
I love this version.
MIA MAKILA 