The stories behind my art: “Sympathy For The Devil”

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“Sympathy For The Devil” by Mia Makila, 2010 – acrylic on canvas

In 2010 I was invited to participate in a group show in Culver City, California – but I hesitated a long time before I agreed to do it, because I was deep into the struggles of my creativity blockage and in a new depression because of it.

When I started to work on “Sympathy For The Devil” I soon felt how I was struggling with the style, composition and with self doubting. I wasn’t having fun, I was in a war with myself.

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Working on “Sympathy For The Devil” in 2010.

I couldn’t seem to get it right. It lacked the playfulness and the energy I always see in my paintings. I felt dissatisfied. But I kept struggling; painting, changing, painting, changing…

DSC_0026symp1I wasn’t pleased with the result (first image in this post), but I thought it was good enough to send.

But the troubles with this painting didn’t end there.

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Shipping day! Here are I am on my way to ship “Sympathy To The Devil” to the USA.

After I had sent the painting on its way to the States, I received some devastating news from the gallery.

“Sympathy For The Devil” had been totally destroyed in the shipping process! I was crushed!

These are the pictures the gallery sent:

After I’d overcome the shock, I started to work on a new painting to send, I had to start over with a new idea – but I kept the style of it. The result was “Little Grace With Killer Doll”:

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And it made it safely to the States and the gallery. But I never saw “Sympathy For The Devil” again.

7 thoughts on “The stories behind my art: “Sympathy For The Devil”

  1. Alex says:

    Hi, Mia. I’m happy that I found you yesterday by accident. I’m reading your first blog now to find out more about you, I’m going through some similar struggle as you with changes and relationships. Your story somehow gives me relief, thank you. I’d like to show you an artist whose photographs have dark atmosphere that I think you would like. It’s not mine unfortunately:)
    Alex

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  2. miamakila79 says:

    WOW! what a wonderful blog – thank you so much! Nice to meet you Alex! And thank your for your kind words 🙂 I’m happy that I can inspire you with my candid stories from my therapy work and my inner journey..

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  3. Alex says:

    I have a lot to tell you but I’m rubbish at talking to people in general even on the internet. I hope you don’t mind though that I write to you sometimes. I don’t know how to say that… I feel that we are very similar. I’m just ending my relationship. Since I left my country 9 years ago I can’t draw anymore which I used to love and never forgot. I’m reading about you and I begin to understand more about myself. Thank you.

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  4. miamakila79 says:

    Alex, you are welcome to write to me whenever you want, I love to communicate with my fans and followers.

    I am sorry to hear about your relationship. I also ended a long relationship last year but it was the best thing I’ve done in a long time. I don’t belong in a conventional relationship, it suffocated me and I couldn’t work with my art, I think that might have happened to you too? I know you can draw, it’s not lost, it never was.. you’ll see.

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  5. Alex says:

    I think you’re right. I just have to find myself again like you did. But it’s going to be a long way to go. Thank you and remember: you’ve got one more soul who wishes you all the best in life:)

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