I’m not feeling well, I think I’m coming down with a cold and my body is still so tense from all the stress. I keep waking up in the middle of the night, gasping for air, like I can’t breathe. And I’ve started to grind my teeth. The meditation helps and I’m trying to shut out any negative energy. But I still have to find more ways to relax. Johnny and I have finished all seasons of Fringe and moved on to my favorite TV series of all times – Lost. I feel childishly excited.

I will go back to painting next week. I have to finish “The Idiot” that I’m  currently working on.

A new time is waiting for me on the other side of the stress. I know I can only reach it by continuing the meditation and trying to shake off all the stress. I’ve been so close to being burned out again. I was so close to the edge. But I am moving away from it. I am gonna be alright.