Trying to capture panic in “The Wound”

I am really painting again. No self-doubt, no hesitation, no fear – just me having fun in the studio. And even if the subject matter is very disturbing and painful for me, I don’t feel sad or anxious while working – I’m just letting it all out and as it leaves my heart and end up on the canvas, I am healing even more. Last night I ended up in that wonderful flow of creativity and passion that I’ve missed so much and I couldn’t sleep because of the rush from the flow.

One of the best things I’ve done lately is to define what my idea of ‘the perfect artistic expression’ is to me. I made a list of what I’m trying to achieve with my artistic voice, and if I just follow the list I will have no reason to doubt myself or compare myself to other artists:

1. Capture strong emotions in their primitive state

2. Use vivid colors

3. Find a balance between light/dark and playful/serious

4. Simplicity and a clear composition (no unnecessary details or a realistic approach)

5. The expression should not be flattering or perfect in an obvious way

6. The expression has to feel like ‘home’ to me