2015 has been one of the toughest and at the same time one of the best years of my life. It’s been an important year of rediscovering my creativity, exploring new concepts as true love, lasting happiness, freedom and the first steps to independence. I’ve grown so much this year, I don’t even feel like I am the same person as I was in January – perhaps mostly because I’ve slowly been taking back the control of my life and ended some toxic and destructive relationships that were draining me. Now, I’ve become a minimalist in the sense of what I have in my life – only good things and people who makes me happy and inspired are allowed to stay in my life, the rest has to go.
January – a frozen world in so many ways. Still homeless and living with my parents. I miss having a life outside my own head.
Fighting my past. It’s painful – but I’m winning. Big time.
February – with my little niece Lilith in Stockholm.
Breaking patterns and ending toxic relationships.
“Strings Attached”, 2015
A new kind of happiness.
Working on “The Fourth Eye”
March – Fragile but strong.
April – With Lilith
May – Signing the contract to my own apartment – I am not ‘homeless’ anymore.
June – I finally move into my new place! My new life is about to begin.
My new studio.
Taking late night walks.
I am starting to feel a new sense of freedom that I’ve never felt before.
Working with my fear makes me overcome a lot of issues. It’s hard work but at least I am trying.
But sometimes, the fear is winning too…
Summer sunshine – inside and outside.
I don’t get the name of the pizza place in my neighborhood – “Why not pizza?”
Meeting my best girlfriend Nanci when she’s visiting Sweden over the summer.
August – The river close to where I live. I have left a lot of old heartache by this river. It will never return.
Working on “His Wet Dream”
On my way – to many new destinations.
Stormy weathers. Stockholm is being a drama queen when I return to print some art.
September – I’ve seen so many amazing documentaries this year! I especially loved “The Jinx” (documentary series), “Making a Murderer” (also a series) and the “Serial Podcast” – but other good documentaries were “Twinsters”, “Iris”, “What happened, Miss Simone?” and “The Wolfpack”.
Feeling exhausted – it’s been such an intense year already.
Doing the impossible.
October – Meeting my big love – Johnny, my brand new American boyfriend. We have been best friends for almost three years already. I feel so lucky.
Johnny. He is just made of love.
I feel so at home.
Peace of mind.
We are a team. I’ve never been in a team before.
November – My health is bad but my heart is finally healing.
Tears with engines.
December – A frosty view from my studio window. The big cemetery is covered in coldness but I feel so warm inside.
Back to work after a long break since the summer.
My video messages from 2015: