I’ve made a plan how to achieve my artistic goals. I’ve reconnected with my creativity after the long hiatus, I’ve cleaned the palette, emotionally and mentally, I’ve killed darlings and gotten rid of old mannerisms that doesn’t fit me as an artist anymore. I am ready. Ready for so many things. I want to build a new collection of works, I want to restore my career and to do it all differently. I want to do this the right way – where I have all control and not letting gallery owners or bad self esteem control me. I don’t want to compare myself to other artists or older versions of myself where I felt successful, I want to make the art I want to make and I don’t care to judge it or listen to other people’s opinions of it. This is MY gift, MY career. I will start from scratch but use my past experiences and successes in this new process to guide me right. I have a new life, peace of mind (for the first time in my life) – my mind is not clogged with PTSD and trauma, I have a much better self-esteem now, I have a new voice that I want to use in my art and I have a clearer vision of what I want to achieve.
I will take a couple of weeks to gather strength and collect energy, before I start this new artistic journey. Before I completely commit myself to what I was born to do. I can’t wait.
MIA MAKILA 
Maybe I should not have drawn your “babies” and waited for something to inspire me from the new vision? Seriously though, I can’t wait to see where you are headed.
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haha no, it’s perfect, just perfect the way it is 🙂 I will try to find a good frame for it when I have more money! 🙂
I am excited too, I feel like I am calmer now, more in control, so I don’t think my work will be as chaotic as it was 10 years ago… I am not a minimalist but I do strive for simplicity.. and powerful and strong expressions…
did I lose most of my blog readers when I got a new boyfriend? Where are all the people? I am happy you are still here, my friend ❤
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Well, if you did lose a few readers, just look at what you gained! I’m guessing the visit (even with you being sick) went as good as you could hope? It is nice to sense the positive vibes you are now emanating.
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Hell yeah! 🙂 I won the jackpot! Yes I feel very positive, focused and optimistic, but I do miss him, but I need to find a way to deal with it , Because the missing is now part of our lives…
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oooooooh new pictures its been a few weeks since i have spoken too you little miss long stockings busy working away but i see you have finally got to see your johnny and i must say you look perfect together i could see a new light and contentment in your pictures from both of you it was good too see especially in this troubled world of ours and todd is right look at what you gained a true love is worth any amount of blog readers Stevie
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Hi Steve! So good to hear from you! I hope all is well with you!!
Yes, it’s amazing how big the contrasts are in the world right now – beauty and the grotesque… I feel safe in my life and within myself for the first time but I don’t feel safe in the world….
But I won’t that take away the beauty and happiness that I feel in my heart. Love will conquer all!
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